I miss those days when I would go to sleep looking at her messages. The days when she would actually say I love you before I fell asleep…when every single day and morning was all good. I miss hearing the songs and telling her how i feel when i hear the songs. I guess that’s all gone now. I miss the sincere conversations that i had with her. Not just one word replies that I have to try to keep a conversation going on with. I miss her actually being into the things i said and not just telling me things to just get on with it. I miss replies. Not things that are obvious. I miss the inputs of her thoughts, not just something to get by. When did that end? Sometimes i wonder if she even trys…although she already said she wouldn’t fight for me. Its amazing how someone would want to be with you…yet they wont lift a finger for you. Why is it that im giving my 100% and all im getting back is nothing. She wants me to try to figure out whats wrong when she just goes to sleep saying bye or night. So i try that and she makes me feel stupid because i act weird when its nothing but how am i suppose to know any of this when she doesnt let me know whats going on:/. Why do i go through all this pain and fighting… I do everything i can for her and she won’t do the same…Why do i fight for someone who doesn’t even seem like they care…Idk anymore…The only thing that keeps me going is how I truly love her…but i dont know if she can say the same about me…why should i keep trying? Idk…I hope one day i can find her love once again…until then I’m just someone in the unknown outcome of a relationship that im afraid is going down hill but my love is still pure…I don’t understand what to do…I guess its just me.
tagged as: Hate. Love. Sucks. Relationship. :(. </3.
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